Roll with it my little ones...
There is no need to rush a single thing
Drift along side the drop out's sighs and indulge in the possibilities of an educated future.
Watch the clouds slide through the sky...we have years to deal with all the let downs and heart breaking silences.
Live because we want to. Dream because there is nothing else to do. Love because you're compelled to, because you can't do anything else.
.X.
Wednesday, 15 September 2010
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight??
*Sighs*
I miss Belfast. I think I've done the right thing...but this time last year I was cramming things onto boxes and setting out on an epic adventure to live in Northern Ireland...and I miss it. I miss the craziness, the freedom and in a way, being miles away from all the stupid history and connections. Oo and the weird Belfast smell...endless rainy days...dashing in and out of Queen's cloisters hiding under a broken Primark (Or Pre-mark as the Norn Irns would say) umbrella with the rain pounding all around you, leaking through the cracks of the brick work. Some days might have been lonely, but I miss the nights out...an Irish party can never be missed!! And ahh all the annoying taxi rides to and from West Belfast and town...the scorn Marty's dad gave me every time I even mentioned to words "Lift please...maybe??", and the random drives to Tescos in Lisburn. Thinking of any reason to be late for work, avoiding the library, skipping lectures, sneaking out the back door instead for a quick Starbucks and a writing session...that was Belfast :). Bliss.
The Island seems quiet knowing everyone has gone. Viki's gone up to Bristol for a few days and all here is doing is looking grim, rainy and seriously uninviting. Argg. Winter has definitely come far too early for my liking! :). But instead of pining to be outside in the dreamy summer light, I am getting used to this working lark, and I'm starting to wonder what do you really do on days off? Procrastination seems silly now. I barely know what to do with myself for an hour alone in the house let alone a whole weekend!! haha :)...have to smile I suppose. Everythings moving on and it's good. See optimism there! YAY!!
Have a craving to go to Scotland or somewhere though. Somewhere cold and far away where snuggling in trashy jumpers and chugging down copius amounts of steamy tea could never be frowned upon. I think I just want to live in an episode of Ashes to Ashes to be honest. hahaaaaa If only :). Down time is needed.
Radiohead, peppermint tea, Paolo Nutini and Sia...sounds like decent down time to me! :D
I miss Belfast. I think I've done the right thing...but this time last year I was cramming things onto boxes and setting out on an epic adventure to live in Northern Ireland...and I miss it. I miss the craziness, the freedom and in a way, being miles away from all the stupid history and connections. Oo and the weird Belfast smell...endless rainy days...dashing in and out of Queen's cloisters hiding under a broken Primark (Or Pre-mark as the Norn Irns would say) umbrella with the rain pounding all around you, leaking through the cracks of the brick work. Some days might have been lonely, but I miss the nights out...an Irish party can never be missed!! And ahh all the annoying taxi rides to and from West Belfast and town...the scorn Marty's dad gave me every time I even mentioned to words "Lift please...maybe??", and the random drives to Tescos in Lisburn. Thinking of any reason to be late for work, avoiding the library, skipping lectures, sneaking out the back door instead for a quick Starbucks and a writing session...that was Belfast :). Bliss.
The Island seems quiet knowing everyone has gone. Viki's gone up to Bristol for a few days and all here is doing is looking grim, rainy and seriously uninviting. Argg. Winter has definitely come far too early for my liking! :). But instead of pining to be outside in the dreamy summer light, I am getting used to this working lark, and I'm starting to wonder what do you really do on days off? Procrastination seems silly now. I barely know what to do with myself for an hour alone in the house let alone a whole weekend!! haha :)...have to smile I suppose. Everythings moving on and it's good. See optimism there! YAY!!
Have a craving to go to Scotland or somewhere though. Somewhere cold and far away where snuggling in trashy jumpers and chugging down copius amounts of steamy tea could never be frowned upon. I think I just want to live in an episode of Ashes to Ashes to be honest. hahaaaaa If only :). Down time is needed.
Radiohead, peppermint tea, Paolo Nutini and Sia...sounds like decent down time to me! :D
Friday, 10 September 2010
Scuzzy
'We're just two lost souls...swimming in a fish bowl'
Summer has been crazy. It's just been a fuzzy blur of endless pale skin, too much wine, even more work, wasting wages on music and vodka, and chilled evenings with the ladies and cake. My little sisters been to Ghana and back and has just become an entirely gorgeous person...and I've stayed on the island, worked and haven't done anything noticeably special or amazing. Sucks ey?
I've been screwed over, played, shot down, stressed to tears, and well...heartbroken. But fuck it all. If anything its made me realise that I am surrounded by beautiful people who do care...I have no reason to mope about one arsehole who has absolutely no respect for anything without a penis. And in fact, thank you for an entirely eventful summers. I think I've learnt so much more in these few sunny months than I have ever done in all the years stuck doing A levels and even in Uni. Thank you for all the angst and heartache :)...there is nothing wrong with me. You allowed me to escape the rut and now I can breathe a little. It was never worth the anxiety it caused and never will be, no matter how rubbish I feel watching you get on with it...was all just a little delicate bubble waiting to burst. It had it's purpose and then it fucked off...beautifully disposable.
'It's a simple fact that you can't seem to handle me...'.
I have discovered so much this summer and have like just been more mary-like than ever. I've discovered the wonders of caramel soya lattes :)....ahhh my days they are wonderful! Caffeine has never tasted so good...and to a food freak, that is some serious compliment haha :). I've found out that revenge is one of the sweetest things, although I really shouldn't admit to this. Also that if I were a lesbian, Victoria Bruinsma would be my first port of call :D. She is just epic in all proportions and I would never want to loose her...cake sessions would never be the same :). Her, Jake and Laura have made this summer. Spa Tuesdays will always be remembered, even if Jake's vision is disrupted by jacuzzi bubbles so much he can't tell which feet are his own. Haaaaaa love. And despite everything, I've discovered some lovely people amongst all the rubbish. Thanks to the East Cowes crew!! I know I've been a mess recently and all, but you guys have been brilliant and I love you. Mostly :).
Ahhh and I've been to Cardiff and the gorgeous place of Bristol!! Good times; me and Viki, freezing in the rain, wandering around Bristol venting all dislike of men and money whilst searching for Starbucks. Bristol!! Come on Bristol...really, six hours searching for Starbucks?? Pfffffft London next time I think :). But you are rather lovely though Bristolia, so no worries!
Everything else is all a bug fuzz really. Know I've been drunk a lot. A lot, a lot. O dear.....I sound like a total wino. But despite going a bit crazy, it's been what I've needed. Relaxation, new people and total hecticness. Bliss. But I know this chilled feeling and contentedness isn't going to last for long...everyone has started leaving and going back to uni and is so weird that to think that this time last year, I was cramming things into boxes, being a pile of nerves and travelling for two days to get Ireland. Is so weird I'm not doing it all again this year, and I'm dreading being left behind. But time is more needed than a hectic year of literature and all that balls haha. O well. Will all be worth it. Hopefully. And besides...I've finally been on my first ever random date!! Argg I feel loved :). And despite being absolutely petrified and getting a little too light-headed than I planned it...it was, hopefully, strangely good. To all you doubting ladies out there...nice guys do actually exist, we just choose to ignore them most the time...there's always hope. Feels like I never really went to Belfast...I don't remember uni happening...but I know this year is going to be hectic and the most boring, hard core, and yet exciting and scariest year yet. Becoming 20, endless opportunities and having a year to do anything in? I think this could be love....
To life, tears and rubbish men...I thank you for making us realise what we really do have, and all the things that actually mean something
.X.
Summer has been crazy. It's just been a fuzzy blur of endless pale skin, too much wine, even more work, wasting wages on music and vodka, and chilled evenings with the ladies and cake. My little sisters been to Ghana and back and has just become an entirely gorgeous person...and I've stayed on the island, worked and haven't done anything noticeably special or amazing. Sucks ey?
I've been screwed over, played, shot down, stressed to tears, and well...heartbroken. But fuck it all. If anything its made me realise that I am surrounded by beautiful people who do care...I have no reason to mope about one arsehole who has absolutely no respect for anything without a penis. And in fact, thank you for an entirely eventful summers. I think I've learnt so much more in these few sunny months than I have ever done in all the years stuck doing A levels and even in Uni. Thank you for all the angst and heartache :)...there is nothing wrong with me. You allowed me to escape the rut and now I can breathe a little. It was never worth the anxiety it caused and never will be, no matter how rubbish I feel watching you get on with it...was all just a little delicate bubble waiting to burst. It had it's purpose and then it fucked off...beautifully disposable.
'It's a simple fact that you can't seem to handle me...'.
I have discovered so much this summer and have like just been more mary-like than ever. I've discovered the wonders of caramel soya lattes :)....ahhh my days they are wonderful! Caffeine has never tasted so good...and to a food freak, that is some serious compliment haha :). I've found out that revenge is one of the sweetest things, although I really shouldn't admit to this. Also that if I were a lesbian, Victoria Bruinsma would be my first port of call :D. She is just epic in all proportions and I would never want to loose her...cake sessions would never be the same :). Her, Jake and Laura have made this summer. Spa Tuesdays will always be remembered, even if Jake's vision is disrupted by jacuzzi bubbles so much he can't tell which feet are his own. Haaaaaa love. And despite everything, I've discovered some lovely people amongst all the rubbish. Thanks to the East Cowes crew!! I know I've been a mess recently and all, but you guys have been brilliant and I love you. Mostly :).
Ahhh and I've been to Cardiff and the gorgeous place of Bristol!! Good times; me and Viki, freezing in the rain, wandering around Bristol venting all dislike of men and money whilst searching for Starbucks. Bristol!! Come on Bristol...really, six hours searching for Starbucks?? Pfffffft London next time I think :). But you are rather lovely though Bristolia, so no worries!
Everything else is all a bug fuzz really. Know I've been drunk a lot. A lot, a lot. O dear.....I sound like a total wino. But despite going a bit crazy, it's been what I've needed. Relaxation, new people and total hecticness. Bliss. But I know this chilled feeling and contentedness isn't going to last for long...everyone has started leaving and going back to uni and is so weird that to think that this time last year, I was cramming things into boxes, being a pile of nerves and travelling for two days to get Ireland. Is so weird I'm not doing it all again this year, and I'm dreading being left behind. But time is more needed than a hectic year of literature and all that balls haha. O well. Will all be worth it. Hopefully. And besides...I've finally been on my first ever random date!! Argg I feel loved :). And despite being absolutely petrified and getting a little too light-headed than I planned it...it was, hopefully, strangely good. To all you doubting ladies out there...nice guys do actually exist, we just choose to ignore them most the time...there's always hope. Feels like I never really went to Belfast...I don't remember uni happening...but I know this year is going to be hectic and the most boring, hard core, and yet exciting and scariest year yet. Becoming 20, endless opportunities and having a year to do anything in? I think this could be love....
To life, tears and rubbish men...I thank you for making us realise what we really do have, and all the things that actually mean something
.X.
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